Skip to main content

Contentment

I haven’t wrote since my miscarriage. Honestly I stopped anything that I was doing to advance myself mentally, physically and emotionally because I was numb. Anxiety sets in and derails me from my supplements that I know work for me.

I convinced myself it was what caused the miscarriage and irregular periods. However I know what the root cause of my problems are. They always have been my anxiety. But they don’t always have to be.

I’m not comfortable living a “victim” mindset. Not that things haven’t been tough for me but because I have tons to be grateful for and I know it could always be worse.

You see chronic stress rather it’s brought on by life or stress we manifest ourselves will make you physically ill.

It’s a viscous cycle. Your anxiety makes you worry about everything on God’s green earth and then it creates high levels of stress. The saying “what goes up, must come down” obviously was never referring to an anxious mind. And your body believes what your mind tells it to.

If you don’t come down your body becomes toxic.

I’ve purposefully started to find ways to decompress. I’m needing to find myself. Not just the wife of my wonderful husband whom I thank God for sparing his life. Not just the mother to the most awesome baby girl ever.

I’m looking for the woman God wants me to be. To be healthy not just fit. To embrace aging and these scars with open arms as they are my war wounds and wisdom streaks. To be content in every season of my life as it is part of what’s made me the woman I am today.

That through my struggles maybe I can help someone else along the way.

Because at the end of the day. When my heart aches because I cannot change my husbands prognosiss. When the mom guilt takes over because I snapped too much at my strong willed daughter. Or maybe I’m down on myself because I’ve drank a little too much wine this month. Or I look in the mirror and I don’t even recognize the woman I’m looking at.

That the only thing in this whole wide world that I have control over is my faith in the Lord Jesus Christ. And I can be content knowing. It is well with my soul.

💜 Pam

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Kindness

If I choose to be nice to someone even though they are constantly being mean to me, I don’t do it for them. I do it for myself. It doesn’t mean I don’t catch your caddy or insulting ways to try to make yourself feel good by degrading me. It is because you are not worth me changing who I am because of an opinion. In this world there will be people that will try to make you feel stupid, small or unworthy. How you react speaks volumes about who you are. An unhappy miserable person will show their butt and that is their journey. All you can do is pray that whatever hardened their heart changes for them. I spent WAY too many years worrying about what strangers, coworkers, and some family members thought of me to the point where I didn’t even know who I was. But I know EXACTLY who I am and I will not lose my soul because of someone else. An Intelligent and classy women is one who can say whatever they want to destroy someone but chooses not to. “Don’t be like the rest of them darling” Pam ...
Post a Comment
Read more

Road blocks

Road Blocks We all have road blocks in our path that keep us from accomplishing the things we want or moving past the things that have hurt us. Sometimes it is people, or our mindset, fear of rejection or it is tragedy. For me it is all of the above. So we have to find that dream or goal even if it seems out of reach. Then we have to start recognizing the “hurdles” that keep us from accomplishing it. 1. If it is people we have to learn that the only way to overcome is to learn to change our reactions not their hurtful actions. There will always be someone who is hurting just like you that will try to hurt you. Let me say it louder for the ones in the back. There will always be someone who is HURTING just like you that will try to hurt you. You cannot change opinions, mindsets, words, but you can change how if you allow it to take residence in your heart. 2. If it is your mindset then GET OUT OF YOUR HEAD. The only way to overcome how you feel about yourself is to fill your mind...
Post a Comment
Read more