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When the presents are gone

As I’m sitting in my living room starring at our Christmas tree with the bare look it brings now that the presents are gone, I feel a sense of sadness. A sense of shame. 

Maybe you’re settling into the new year with a sense of void? But how can that be? It’s the most wonderful time of the year, right?!

For some of you, maybe you didn’t get quite get what you wanted? Or maybe nothing at all? Or perhaps you got everything you could possibly imagine?

However, the void may still be the same for all. Why is that? For me and honestly for most is you run yourself ragged to chase worldly gratification and lose sight of the true meaning of this season.

The gift of Christ. Our savior was born! That void is us trying to replace the best gift you could ever receive. But maybe you don’t believe? What’s gotten you to that place? Tragedy? A life of hurt and resentment. Maybe you don’t want to let go of worldly things?

We'll let me tell you something my friends. I’ve lived a life of getting everything I wanted, and I also have lived a life of tragedy, hurt and resentment.

Did you know that whichever path you are on or card your dealt, the void of Christ is the same? It’s empty, lonely and a dead-end road.

As I try to set my New Years resolution I'm focusing on my eternal well-being and not so much success. Not because being successful isn’t important, but because if my relationship with Christ isn’t where it needs to be then one day all that wasted time, money and energy will pale in comparison to those golden gates! 

Pam 

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