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I don’t think Jesus does it that way..

 


Every time I look back on what I’ve been through and I see the person I’m morphing into, I understand how the pain had to exist to get me to wake up. I’ve always been hard headed, and it wasn’t until I shared my testimony in text to my eldest niece that I truly understood the magnitude of it. I’ve talked about my testimony when I was younger but seeing it written out allowed me space to advocate for other young women like myself. Since I have a daughter I want her to know that there is so much groundwork that had to be done to cultivate a healthy lifestyle and that sometimes we have to walk through fire to find the best version of ourselves and there’s NO shame in that! 

🖤 My testimony below - the younger version 🖤

“I remember the teenage years were so hard for me. I tried so hard to find where I fit in. I thrived on attention from anyone who would give it to me. I avoided the people I loved because I felt convicted of the lifestyle I was living anytime I was around good. But God! He made sure through the youth, my family, real friends that could have walked away, he made sure he left the 99 to find me. He found me sitting right smack in the middle of my insecurities, anxiety, shame, anger, fear, and self sabotaging stage and he wanted me home. 

See the very thing that I tried to find was the very thing I needed to avoid. And that was to fit in when I was designed to be set apart. 🔥

Baby girl! I’m not sure how the teenage life is treating you but if you ever need someone to talk to, I’m here. 

Remember, no matter what. Your reputation is your honesty to others and yourself. And I used to not care about what others thought of me until I realized we were never meant to do life alone”

🖤 My testimony- the older version 🖤

I can share how God guides me through adversity because I was thrown into it through the years through health issues, trauma, miscarriages, not dealing with my anxiety and I found my voice I suppressed to make others comfortable. 

I’ve been wounded so many times opening up to others. I’ve avoided connection because it was my way of controlling the vulnerability of it. But when the creator of the universe ask you to keep sharing your story and heart you do it. 

The enemy knows what’s inside you and he will not stop until he takes everything you care about away all while making it look good. You are fighting battles for your own mental health and you’ll fight battles as the world tries to hold your children captive to worldly things not worth selling yourself out on. 

Slow down, breathe, then reposture yourself! 🤟


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